5th down and forever to go..!

Here we complete 5 years of being married. It took a while for me to
comprehend that we are literary completing 5 years of tying a knot. Time did fly by. Path that we crossed so far was not all roses. We crossed a million
hiccups and zillion arguments. Eventually we are learning to quickly settle
down for a common agreement or to keep the ends open and parallel rather than holding on things and letting it create void.

I feel we have grown together in this span of years to be more wise humans,
companions and of course as evolving parents. Evolving with you is something I will cherish forever. Trust me it is none less than living best of both worlds to be with you. No doubt we still have a long to go for improvements in terms of individuals and relationship too, we are still full of imperfections, but the best thing that has happened is embracing each other as we were/are.

I look up to you as my hope, rock solid support to whom I would forever see
backing me, someone who would stand for me even the phase where I may not be able to stand for myself and of course someone who would keep showering love infinitely.

I know we don’t show/say it often, but we know deep down that it exists for
more gravity and meaning now than before, and it will continue to be so for the years to come.

Wish us (belated) very happy anniversary.

It’s
me,

Yours truly

आई हैं खुशियों का पेगाम लेके बहारें
ये पल है अपना, इस पल में आओ
तक़दीर अपनी संवारे ..
हो कुछ तुम सोचो कुछ हम सोचें
फिर खुशी का मौसम आए ……

disappointment….!

Not getting your demands fulfilled/answered when asked for is one kind of disappointment and ignoring your little one’s demands to refrain her from getting habitual to fulfillment is way more than disappointment…! sigh

motherhood saga – ode to unsung hero

It was mother’s day couple of days back and so was this post lingering on my mind. Sure it is a blessing and it is much more than that if you have a that one person as your partner of motherhood – of-course in literal sense.

I would not say motherhood is overrated as every moment of it is either a sweet surprise or a new hiccup to get over, but fatherhood is underrated for sure is what I honestly feel. Now that we are at the advent of gender equality, fathers have come far beyond of their role of being mere bread winners and yours truly is fortunate enough to have such a significant other. So for this time, motherhood saga is all about ode to unsung hero of it – a father of 14 months old.

When I reminisce last two years, the time since we knew are going to be parents to the date, every day has been a new adventure and things kept changing to extent of turning my world upside down – only HE being the constant support to rely on. Things have changed for him to in exactly same way and extent if not more and I interrogate – did I bother about it? for the obvious answer. I was/am so occupied handling spilled over things that I tend to look back only when I need a shoulder to lean on – Unfair, I understand and accept that. Motherhood doesn’t turn any one dumb and deaf for the rest of world though it brings you on toes round the clock. Possible reason for this may be that things that appeared on the surface were so calm,subtle and stable that they hardly showed any glimpse of turmoil underneath. I bow down this art of him of keeping the surface calm irrespective of relentless paddling going down there.

As time is progressing, I am realizing that motherhood takes far more than nine moths of carrying and labor. I keep wondering for how and when things changed and started falling in place without me nagging me for any of it. It started right after we were back here – adjusting her here with new predicament, getting up at any odd hour of the night for her formula,bearing with her peeps and poos,sleeping cautiously every minute of night for she may fall off the bed when she started crawling, giving her bath,making her sleep,changing her nappies and clothes, making her hair and now feeding her from your own dish no matter how much mess she creates with both of her hands in the dish.No one is born with capabilities to go swiftly about all this and so it must not have been easy for you either.

This is just to let you know that nothing of it has gone unnoticed though it may not have been reacted to from time to time. You are adored even more than before for this helping hand without being asked for it. I am spell bound to put what it means to have this all. And though you are sharing the responsibilities for motherhood already, it takes a mother to appreciate it 🙂

Wishing all the mothers and helping fathers a very happy Mother’s day..!

To the complete Big 1

Well your mumma almost missed it and is late as always. It was on 29th and that is more than couple of days back. They say better late than never, so here I am.

Wish you a very happy first birthday sweetheart. Love to the moon and back and blessings from all of us. May you be blessed with best of everything you would ever cherish for.

We made sure to keep the celebration as simple as possible as we didn’t wanted to see you cry, feel annoyed and give up on everything. You are too small for all this and we promise the one absolutely the way you want when you yourself can tell us about how you want it to be. We know somewhere that we disappointed many people around doing this, but it was all for you and so we wanted it to be suitable for you and nothing else was even of concern.

Capturing your milestones on the occasion of the D day here :

You can almost walk without any support. I wish I could protect you from the contaminated air and just have a pure thing for you to breath and save you from all those viral things,sigh. It brought you down and made you weak to the core. Hoping for your seepdy recovery.

Oh yes how can we forget about your teething, 1 is clearly out and others have started peeping out. Cannot wait to see you as our cute little bunny with two upper ones out :). I know it is way too painful for you but this is how we all have it, so hang on you are almost there.

You can speak now, yeah the clear words. Most important you gladly call me “Aai” with that cute smile and you know it is a thing to die for. You have no idea how much I have been waiting for this to happen since you started blabbering.

You have started recognising a few animals and fondly try to imitate there voices. I am trying my best to capture and preserve it all.

You are getting addicted to rhymes played on the phone, and I don’t have a clear solution as to how can I make you forget this as I am not around you 24X7. This and such similar things gives me and your papa worries to an extent that we end thinking of quitting the work as solution to put an end to all this mess 😦

Last but not the least you are improving on sleep hours in the night and I can have a sleep for 4 hours straight uninterrupted. This is quite an achievement for both of us , ain’t it 😉

I don’t know for what reason but I am not able to bring this post to an inline end, putting an end with these lines:

My baby

to the 9th one…!

Wish you a very happy 9th one cutie pie.

Last three months have been of extra-miler activities that lead you to be a hyper active being.We know you have never been a sane one, but I wont be exaggerating it if I say you are no less than a little monster ;).. The moment you open your eyes(yeah 5.30 AM/6 AM – now you people see why yours truly is cruel enough to call the cute little angle a MONSTER..!)you are all charged up to do every possible mundane thing on the earth.

Now that you can crawl, stand with support on your own but still cannot step forward,walker has been none less than blessing for you as I can see how your eyes sparkle with joy the moment we put you in and then you are all set to conquer the world, aint it? 😉 Kitchen trolley being your most favorite time pass, you swiftly mange to pull all reachable things with your 2 feet height. Bedroom side tables are no exception to it and oh yeah morning chores were never this challenging for me , not even on the first day when I entered this house.

With you learning a new thing each day, you are making it even more for me step out leaving you behind. 😦

Wishing you a very happy one,tones more to merrier ones to follow.

P.S : I need to get  a cake for you.. Signing off 🙂

fast forward to the sixth month…!

So I started already missing on her milestones. She is six months today :). She has started turning around and learning to sit. Oh yes and thing of utter importance, she has started living 5 hours a day without me. 🙂 😦 . Yep you guys guessed it right, I have joined back and the emotional drain has been in process for 29 days now. We both are able to survive through it till now.

I am trying to put down all that happened so far, so that you and I both can read it as you grow up and mesmerize in the memories 🙂

You can very well turn around now, so the risky business of letting you alone on the bed is gaining  a fast pace. You did the first lesson of getting off the bed on the floor, giving a small heart attach to almost every one in the house. We are gearing up for being on toes and many such adventures :D. Giving you bath is turning to be the challenge as you refuse to be calm for even just a second. You are in hurry to do all the mundane things right then when your granny is giving you massage. We just wonder what is wrong for face cleaning thing with you, what makes you cry that louder every single day and how do you guess that we are going to have soap over your face no matter how many times we try and change the order of the things we do while bathing.

We have started making you taste the food we eat, aww how much you enjoy having food with all of us. That joy in your eyes is priceless and face that you make when you taste a new thing is so much fun to watch.

You wake up in just another minute I move away from you, be it be morning, or afternoon. How do you manage to guess that things have move around from you even I make sure you are fast a sleep before I step away. Sixth sense, is it something that is so developed for you already sweetheart? My attempt of keeping a pillow or a soft toy around you when I move away is a failure, you know it’s not me for sure.

You have started toothing, yeah I see it is painful for you. You are in constant effort to take a bite of anything and everything that you can. We welcome stomach infection with your this progress.

You have already started aligning people around in a sequence whom you want to stay with. If it is me around , you don’t want anyone else to hold you. Your dad is the second person in the home and your grandmother – she is the last and the only resort for you then. We all giggle to see you growing smart.

You blabber some letters as you play, “dada” ,”tyatya” are a few we can make some sense out of. It was no easy to record that audio as you managed to be silent every time you saw me holding the phone. But I am your mumma sweetheart :P, I managed to record it the other day and I would make sure to keep it safe for you to listen to it later. 🙂

Oh yes last but not the least thing, you can very well sense a camera in front now. Is it nature that is pushing in the sense of technology this early in you as we are part of fast faced tech world?

 

home is no home without you…!

Okay let me admit it first. Yes I miss you that badly and I never ever thought that intensity of this can be this high..! May be because this the very first time that I am here without you being here in 10 months that we are married for..!
It will be hard for you to believe that I wasn’t feeling any sleepy for a long time last night, no I am not kidding, I am telling the truth. I spent time hating myself for the fact that my eyes refuse to open even for second no matter how much I try for that when you are around and so want to talk. I still cannot figure out what causes this and out of what it didn’t happen when you weren’t around.

I just want this weekend to finish ASAP, I opted for a working weekend, I am just not able to cope up with this void that your absence is creating. I  am logging f for your walk around as I am cleaning the room. I am logging for the nuisance that you cause while I bring back your cupboard to a usable state. I just miss you as much as humanly possible..!
Just be back as soon as you can…!

Oo sathi reee,din dube naa…

tere bin…

tere bin / besides you
sanu sohnia / my love
koi hor nahio labhna / i shan’t find another
jo dave / who’ll give
ruh nu sakun / peace to my soul
chukke jo nakhra mera / and indulge me
ve main sare ghumm ke vekhia / i have gone and seen it all
amrika , roos, malaysia / america, russia, malaysiana
kittey vi koi fark si / there wasn’t any difference
har kise di koi shart si / they all had some condition
koi mangda mera si sama / some asked for my time
koi hunda surat te fida / some were fascinated with my face
koi mangda meri si vafa / some demanded my fidelity
na koi mangda merian bala / none wanted my demons
tere bin / besides you
hor na kise / no one else
mangni merian bala / wanted my demons
tere bin / besides you
hor na kise / no one else
karni dhup vich chhan / shall shade me in the sun
jiven rukia / (the) way you paused
si tun zara / slightly
nahion bhulna / i shan’t forget
main sari umar / all my life
jiven akhia si akhan chura / you said, looking away
“rovenga sanu yad kar” / “you shall weep in my memory”
hasia si main hasa ajeeb / i laughed a strange laugh
(par) tu nahi si hasia / but you didn’t
dil vich tera jo raaz si / you had a secret in your heart
mainu tu kyon ni dasia / why didn’t you tell me
tere bin / besides you
sanu eh raz / none shall tell this
kise hor nahion dasna / secret to me
tere bin / besides you
peerh da ilaaj / what druid
kis vaid kolon labhna / has the cure to my ills
milia si ajj mainu / i found today
tera ik patra / a note of yours
likhia si jis ‘te / on which you had scribbeled
tun shayr varey shah da / a varis shah couplet
park ke si osnu / upon reading which
hanjnu ik duliya / a teardrop fell
akhan ‘ch band si / what was locked in the eye
seh raaz ajj khulia / was revealed today
ki tere bin / that other than you
eh mere hanjnu / these tears of mine
kise hor / won’t be kissed by
nahio chumna / none else
ki tere bin / that other than you
eh mere hanjhu / these tears of mine
mitti vich rulnha / will wither in the dust

P.S. : This is lyrics of a song

take the world and paint it red… :)

What it is when you feel that stubborn clock is taking  really long to turn from 6 p.m to 6.30 p.m?  And then normal traffic annoys you for no reason as you know there is nothing new with it… Finally reaching the destination and those long(well not really long) awaited glance exchanges.. Those tickling butterflies in the stomach… Unstoppable smiles for no reason… And when you feel you should talk something you fall short of words and what all you do is Smile.. 🙂

And now that I literary cannot talk this all to that person face to face, WordPress is at my rescue. I want to put that all down. That out of the world feeling of being really really special. Have you wonderful readers experienced being that special ever? Have you been renamed as “Princes” for another time in your life after your Dad did it for the first time? Have the number of phone calls monitoring you – like did you start for office? did you reach? have you had breakfast?lunch?coffee?dinner?did you reach home? doubled for you?I mean exactly the double in number? Has any one ever written a poem for you? or someone wrote those sometime back and now tells you that ,”YOU” perfectly fit in those words? Sounds wonderful,ain’t it? Well to literally live this is Heavenly feeling.

Yes this all is happening around the life of yours truly 🙂 …. I never knew that someone can change my life to this extent. Things fall in place in their own time. I mark it again. This could have happened say long three years back but no, this was the right time made for all that to fall in place. Yesterday a school friend, today becoming the prince charming. Ahhh I don’t know how much I should thank god for this. I smile at my past cribbing and complains about destiny today for that I yelled of being lonely and feeling the void. Change is what I have all around. Remember?? I often talked about the time freezing moment that I was awaiting for? Here it is finally…..!

Looking forward to the Big day that we will make to the life time…. Will keep you wonderful readers posted of the updates..

Till then – Painting it red with him… 🙂 🙂 🙂

Its me,

yours truly….

Cheers