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So here we are at the end of the first week of the new year…! Time is passing by with blink of eye and here I am by stander witnessing it pass by as if it is someone else’s time and life. 😦 

Get up in the morning, hastly finish and leave for the office. Do mundane things and wait for clock to tick 6PM. Leave for home,do the same stuff without change of a thin line and repeat -call it LIFE, Period…!

No matter how hard i am trying to push myself for the baby steps of starting 15 mins early in the morning, big failure it is…!I wonder when did I get this lazy, wasn’t it the same me for whom getting up at any odd hour of the clock was no deal? With this thing in, exercising is turnig to be a distant dream. I really need to loose couple of pounds atleast if not more.

 I downloaded Kindle so that I can get over the feeling of not finding time to buy/read books, book with not even 200 pages is laying in there for month now and I have no wish to complete it. Wasn’t it the same me for whom a night was enough to finish some 100 pages of the book?Where did I loose this will, for what I mean? What did I find worth loosing this so fondly inculcated hobby?Sigh..!

 Same goes with newly subscribed online tech courses, I purchased them so that I can learn on the move, but no i don’t even remember the last time I opened Udyme.This is yet another thing I am just wondering for.Yeah, you got it right, with no action to bring in the change.

Forget new learning and doing things, I tried cleaning up phones playlist so that I can listen what I like and cheer up for a while atleast, hell no, I am not liking a single track on my own playlist. Help ya people, tell me where should I go?

Bottom line :  nothing is turning up yours truly, yeah nowhere is where I am standing. I don’t even feel urge to do something about this dumb phase. Well,what can be more lame than this. 😐 Wait, if you are suggesting me to take a break, i don’t see it coming any soon.

P.S. : To all my besties who can read between the lines, you people exactly know where I am, in dire need of a meet up…

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to the 9th one…!


Wish you a very happy 9th one cutie pie.

Last three months have been of extra-miler activities that lead you to be a hyper active being.We know you have never been a sane one, but I wont be exaggerating it if I say you are no less than a little monster ;).. The moment you open your eyes(yeah 5.30 AM/6 AM – now you people see why yours truly is cruel enough to call the cute little angle a MONSTER..!)you are all charged up to do every possible mundane thing on the earth.

Now that you can crawl, stand with support on your own but still cannot step forward,walker has been none less than blessing for you as I can see how your eyes sparkle with joy the moment we put you in and then you are all set to conquer the world, aint it? 😉 Kitchen trolley being your most favorite time pass, you swiftly mange to pull all reachable things with your 2 feet height. Bedroom side tables are no exception to it and oh yeah morning chores were never this challenging for me , not even on the first day when I entered this house.

With you learning a new thing each day, you are making it even more for me step out leaving you behind. 😦

Wishing you a very happy one,tones more to merrier ones to follow.

P.S : I need to get  a cake for you.. Signing off 🙂

fast forward to the sixth month…!


So I started already missing on her milestones. She is six months today :). She has started turning around and learning to sit. Oh yes and thing of utter importance, she has started living 5 hours a day without me. 🙂 😦 . Yep you guys guessed it right, I have joined back and the emotional drain has been in process for 29 days now. We both are able to survive through it till now.

I am trying to put down all that happened so far, so that you and I both can read it as you grow up and mesmerize in the memories 🙂

You can very well turn around now, so the risky business of letting you alone on the bed is gaining  a fast pace. You did the first lesson of getting off the bed on the floor, giving a small heart attach to almost every one in the house. We are gearing up for being on toes and many such adventures :D. Giving you bath is turning to be the challenge as you refuse to be calm for even just a second. You are in hurry to do all the mundane things right then when your granny is giving you massage. We just wonder what is wrong for face cleaning thing with you, what makes you cry that louder every single day and how do you guess that we are going to have soap over your face no matter how many times we try and change the order of the things we do while bathing.

We have started making you taste the food we eat, aww how much you enjoy having food with all of us. That joy in your eyes is priceless and face that you make when you taste a new thing is so much fun to watch.

You wake up in just another minute I move away from you, be it be morning, or afternoon. How do you manage to guess that things have move around from you even I make sure you are fast a sleep before I step away. Sixth sense, is it something that is so developed for you already sweetheart? My attempt of keeping a pillow or a soft toy around you when I move away is a failure, you know it’s not me for sure.

You have started toothing, yeah I see it is painful for you. You are in constant effort to take a bite of anything and everything that you can. We welcome stomach infection with your this progress.

You have already started aligning people around in a sequence whom you want to stay with. If it is me around , you don’t want anyone else to hold you. Your dad is the second person in the home and your grandmother – she is the last and the only resort for you then. We all giggle to see you growing smart.

You blabber some letters as you play, “dada” ,”tyatya” are a few we can make some sense out of. It was no easy to record that audio as you managed to be silent every time you saw me holding the phone. But I am your mumma sweetheart :P, I managed to record it the other day and I would make sure to keep it safe for you to listen to it later. 🙂

Oh yes last but not the least thing, you can very well sense a camera in front now. Is it nature that is pushing in the sense of technology this early in you as we are part of fast faced tech world?

 

Those small moments


Of the anger
Of the love
Of the joy
Of the sorrow
Of the commitment
Of the betraying
Of the contentment
Of the emptiness
Of the envy
Of the anxiety
Of the Nothingness….
It never lasts more than a moment, be it be any thing. Live it when it lasts..!

rant


They say people count on every goal that is missed and not the goals that are hit. I am experiencing this saying to the fullest in the personal as well as professional life. I end up forgetting without any intension just like that as there are hundred and ten things on my mind at a given point of time. I accept that this is something I really need to work on, I just cannot let is happen over and over again. But then cannot I expect at least a one person around me to understand that what I did wasn’t intentional for one time at least supposing I am repeating single things say 10 times??
Should I even count on all these people as mine if they cannot take a single miss from me? Is getting married and wearing mangalsutra any kind of certification that once you have it, you are not supposed to commit any mistake? Not sure it is just my state of mind and not the fact as I am yet not comfortable with the new house and people around though it will be four moths of being so tomorrow. Or is it the fact that I should accept and stop expecting any one around to be considerate? Wouldn’t that mean even I am being unfair to my own self? No, I cannot do that, how can even I think of being non considerate alike everyone else. I assure myself to make peace with my own self.
I’ll sand by and guard my self till I get out of this down fall.

note to self..!


Its a high time that I should get back on the routine. Well by routine I mean “back doing things that I love doing”, otherwise its pretty much a routine that I so desperately want to break out from. It may sound stupid or may be like I am talking infinite loops, but if it so, so be it. Listing is down while I remind myself to get back to all this…
1) Get back to reading habit ASAP
2) Blog regularly, be it be just a lines or two. Do it no matter what.
3)Get the guitar tuned whichever way possible.
4) Prey daily.
5) Whatever is supposed go wrong, is going to go wrong, stop worrying.
6) Get back to the old friends, being married cannot be excuse for losing contacts, you cannot afford it.!
7)Start studying as I have a assessment to complete in the year half  which already has a month passed.
8)Learn to have better control on temper.

I hope I will be able to keep up with all that is listed above.
Till the next time,
Its me
Yours truly

two states


In the moods these days..
May be positive, may be negative
May be truth may be falsehood.
May be reality may be fantasy.
May be fact may be perception.
May be right may be wrong.
May be mine may be yours.
May be should hang on  may be let go.
Confused ,puzzled…!

completing two months of madness…!


60 days of being married to you :), nothing less than a roller coaster ride. Exploring you as a life partner is a different experience altogether though you are the same you at core heart.
      Keeping with you in not that easy dude 😉 no I mean seriously :p :p ( I can imagine his face with eyebrows raised whilst reading this line :D). OK the reason I am saying this now is that I have started living with you 24×7( no we still go to office, don’t take it literally). And here goes the list as to why I said it isn’t easy.                             
It is just 15 minutes before you reveal the secret that you want to leave after 15 minutes. Your wify isn’t super women darling, how she is supposed to manage your panic attacks as you get late???

Rimless glasses for week days and full rims for weekends, cannot we have rimless on weekends for a change ? Shouldn’t matter right? 😉

If I miss to answer your call doesn’t necessarily mean I am in trouble. I mean may be I am not near phone, or there are people around and yours truly is stuck with some discussion. Phone may be is placed in bag and I am driving,possible, right? This takes you to the pick of being panic. There cannot be absolutely anything wrong with yours truly as long as you are there, believe me.

Follow ups – I am improving on my food habits as much as I can. Bare with me for that while and slow down follow ups a little, please?

Clothes in your part of wardrobe wander as much as you do, will ya please find a little time help me arrange them? Its 2 months already and I am still clueless of what all you like in it and what you don’t, what is old and what is new. 😦 We really need to find time for this.

And yes last but not the list, try and teas yours truly a little less 😉 🙂

Well I’ll crib about zillion things in years to come as I’ll know you more as a husband, beyond this your love and support are the only eternal things, rest all flies by.
P.S. : It is just the new style of writing that I wanted try, no complaints at all for you honey.
Its me,
Yours truly

Daily Prompt: Born to Be With You


Got a soul-mate and/or a best friend? What is it about that person that you love best? Describe them in great detail — leave no important quality out.

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A friend, best friend and the soul mate then…! This is how he transitioned and turned from a stranger to soul-mate, that long journey it is..

He is the same fellow with whom my life started having “Boys” as friends. (He is not aware of this fact yet), as he never bothered for who all I have around. For him it was his presence in my hour of need was the only thing that mattered. Give him a shout, and I was assured the response, no expectations in return, yes absolutely nothing. This fact made me count on him as “Best Buddy” over a period of time. Being introvert by nature, it was next to impossible for me stand for whole new city and the all new life there by, just assuring words of him made me face and stand what all was coming my way.

He lives with the simple principle, “Live the time when it lasts”. And I am exactly opposite being always busy with the memories of the past or anxiety of the future. Hats off to his patients to push me out of this at least to some percent. Ask him, it was no easy task. I tend to spend hours together to find why particular problem is there in reality at all,when it is nothing wrong that I did, and what the solution can be is that he thinks of the exact next  moment when he realizes problem is there.

Once decided, its engraved is true for both of us, and that is the only thing we have in common. He talks  a lot, and yours truly is equal and opposite. He has, say odd 100 friends to whom he can count as friends, and number fingers that we have would me more if I am to count on. Extremities is his forte, calculated is risk is what I prefer.

Rock-solid is what I perceived him as long as mere friends that we were. Now that we are progressing a step further, I see how quickly this rock can melt when it is about his truly. Ex-stream sensitive is what I see under the hood of rock solid appearance that he has for rest of the world.

This is what all that forms the soul of my soul mate.

Born to be with you –

its me,

yours truly

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