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Daily Prompt: Singing the Blues


We all feel down from time to time. How do you combat the blues? What’s one tip you can share with others that always helps to lift your spirits?

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Crying the river was the only way so far that opted when it was to singing blues. Let the silent tears roll out as long as they do, and relief what I had  at the end of it. They say it heals more if we cry with someone, but I prefer it all alone.

I totally understand this way of singing blues can never lead me to solution, but that is what works for me at least to feel better at the moment.

I wont say this way as to tip to anyone to use for singing blues, but yes to cry is ok than choking up.

name it what you want…


For the yet another time I am not sure what it is. Why is this uneasy feeling,why this gloom around. I am not sure what mind state it is and why it is here in the first place. Positive words have stopped working for me somehow. Nothing seems in place. I am not able to concentrate on any single thing,finding everything to be just an over head.

I have striven hard to get to work on thing and technology I love, but some how from last couple of days no matter how interesting the work is, I just don’t feeling like doing it. Deadlines are approaching fast, peice of work that I am assigned to is critical, my mind know it all and still it refuses to take it upon. I mean what do we call it? I really cannot afford this state of my mind.And did I mention this state is not limited to the work only.

To add some colors to the monotonous life,just to have some breathing space, feel the joy of creativity, keep up the learning attitude,I have joined guitar classes. Borrowed the guitar from a friend so that I can keep practicing beyond the class hours. I was loving it to the core. Yes sadly I should say “I was”(figures crossed, I wish to write it as “I am loving it” really soon) and its same story here. I simply don’t feel like touching those strings. There is such a long plan already made as to list of songs to be learned,buying my very own guitar and playing some complete track unplugged, and let you wonderful reader hear it and look for your feed back. Where is the urge gone? I want it back,I really want it back.

Same story continues with reading. Its been time that used to peep at the pass by book stalls to pick up the one or two just in the time traffic single goes green. This was the desperation to read irrespective of the hectic schedule. And now I am just planning to buy a new book to read since last 15 days. Yes,just “PLANS”. It was never been the case that I didn’t know what is the next book to read,but now I really don’t know,if I am to pick up, what should it be. I feel envy to see my roomy lost over a book. Where is that “ME”. I am just so missing my own self.

It was me who was scolded every now and then because of the plugged ear phones, and yes you people got it right, I don’t even feel like listening songs too. My beloved iPod, who was the companion of night till I fall a sleep remain in the bag pocket.

Where I am heading with this all. Ahhh I don’t know what I  need. No don’t suggest me to take a break I already had it. Had really good time with all my cousin  brothers and sisters. Probably I just need some time with myself.I need the ME time so that I can re-organize myself and priorities things on mind. Is it that I am trying to think and do so many things at a time that is causing this chaos? I need to figure this out. Till then,if there is something that you people can suggest,please do. Suggestions are kindheartedly looked forward to.

Hope to you meet you people on a positive note next time we meet. Till then,

Its me,

Yours truly

Rooh ka banjara re parinda
Chhad gaya dil ka re gharonda
Chhad gaya dil ka re gharonda todke
Re gharonda todke, gaya chhodke

(Its the free spirit (in me) that is soaring, flying out like a bird, escaping from my heart, which (once) used to be its abode…..breaking the shackles that held it within….(as we talk), the spirit is away on a wing and a prayer, having bolted from its own (constraining) home.)
Je naina karun band band
Beh jaye boond boond
Tadpaye re, kyun sunaye geet malhar de

(Every time  I close my eyes, the river (of tears) begins to drizzle (down)…..Anguish and misery are my (constant) company, even as the song (and sounds) of rain(s) have started their slow dance.)

que sera sera…..


Don’t have anything special to write about. Just felt like scribbling something. Long break from the routine is something I was looking for and I am having it. Its yet another day I’ll be back to pavilion with many things to think about really seriously (Mom is source for food for thoughts this time…) Though many of these things make me hold my breath at times, this time it is like “Que Sera Sera….” I am no more worried, nor sure out of what I am ready take upon whatever time and life has to offer…

dont want to give it a title…


I hurt myself today,
To see if I still feel,
I focus on the pain,
The only thing that’s real,The needle tears a hole,
The old familiar sting,
Try to kill it all away,
But I remember everything,

What have I become,
My sweetest friend,
Everyone I know,
Goes away in the end,

And you could have it all,
My empire of dirt,
I will let you down,
I will make you hurt,

I wear this crown of thorns,
Upon my liars chair,
Full of broken thoughts,
I cannot repair,

Beneath the stains of time,
The feelings disappear,
You are someone else,
I am still right here,

And you could have it all,
My empire of dirt,
I will let you down,
I will make you hurt,

If I could start again,
A million miles away,
I will keep myself,
I would find a way……

 

P.S. – Its a lyrics of some song.

the serenity re-defined…!


I have visited couple of beaches near the city this rainy season,posted the snaps too.Experience was yet to be put down in the words.May be if I post my personal snaps, they will reveal what all the sea-shore and the surroundings meant to me…

The best of the all the day outs was an hour at the sea-shore at 8 p.m. The place where we visited the shore was a small village, a literal village. No houses built of cement concrete,very less or almost no things automated – neither vehicles,nor the things of daily use. Every house was lit with the small earthen lamps when we were on the way to the shore.It was just a five minutes walk from the place we were staying for that night. It was the scene I saw after ages. I remembered the same sense of evening I have experienced when I was 3-4 yrs old, when my father had posting in what is literary called village. All seemed to serene and perfectly placed. Marvelous was the first site of the sea-shore. Just the moon light- yes only the moon light, there wasn’t even a single artificial light. The blue water to the extent eyes can reach to see and the sound that we could here was the only sound of waves. I can absolutely feel it while penning down as well. I have visited sea-shore couple times before,but site wasn’t ever this beautiful before and I don’t think it will ever be. 8 p.m. may be was pretty late,so we were the only people present there.

We were the group when we reached the shore and were all dispersed as singles within just few minutes. May be everyone had special and the secret message to be shared with the sea and I was no exception to it.  I was just in awe to witness its hugeness. Sea was re-defining what serenity meant to me. It made me forget myself and the world around. I don’t know what that feeling was exactly that brought the tears in my eyes. Was it the happiness?the feeling of contentment?was it the sadness?the loneliness? I don’t have answer..I was just feeling it…. I would definitely visit the same shore at the same time when I’ll have that  special someone in my life.No place can be more perfect than this for that special walk.

The feel when the waves touch your feet, the feel when the soil under your feet pull you down as the waves return to the sea. I was wondering about the relation these waves and the sea-shore have. They meet each other for just a moment. Is this “just a moment” sufficient for them to meet and ensure each other of their presence for each other. How do they manage this? Wouldn’t sea-shore any time feel to go and visit the wave rather than wave visiting it every time? What kind of bonding they have? How come wave keeps its promise of visiting the shore every time? Shouldn’t we get the inspiration from these waves and learn to keep the promises? shouldn’t we learn to rise every time fall?  How does moon feels to see waves and sea-shore meet? I want someone with me to answer my all questions next time I’ll visit the sea. Sure that I am not gonna visit sea shore alone next time I do. I don’t know how,but I wont alone…..

This was one of those moments of my life when I wanted time to freeze. Well lets see when life offers me my next awaited freezing moment.. Will keep you people posted of it..! 🙂 And that is what I can put in words of the serenity that was re-defined to me… Signing off on the note of prayer that may life bless me with someone like sea who can occupy the void that is there…!

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