I hate it when I so wanna talk and there’s no one in the world on the other side to hear..
There are very rare/few times I want/wish to talk this desperately and the bad thing being every timeĀ I want to – there’s no one to hear.I mean why?? People so complain about me being not open to talks,for being introvert and shy,well I am like you people don’tĀ see this side when it’s there..!
Well the situationĀ isĀ – a normal weekend evening. IĀ am prettyĀ sure that it’s notĀ possible to meet any of my dear ones. Phone in frontĀ of me looks at me with the hope that I’ll pick it up and I do the same. I start dialing with the sequence of nearest/dearest peopleĀ and GOSH… Five calls in a row with the answer “Get back to youĀ later”…..For a moment I felt like I am the only person on the earth who has got free time… sigh…..! Just the texting or online chatsĀ can’tĀ satisfy my thrust of talking at least at this kind of time and the desperation…!
For the week days I understand that even if we wish we can’tĀ get in touch but for weekends??? CantĀ we spare even 10 minutesĀ to attend someone who wants us to do that? And the thing that made me feel more worriedĀ is – if it’s theĀ situation when it’s hardlyĀ a year or two that we have been working,how will it be five years down the line??? No,I don’tĀ even want to imagine that.
You all are the pieces of my life’s puzzle my darling pals,I wont be able to complete this puzzle if IĀ loseĀ evenĀ a single piece…I cannt even bear the distance with you people….I know I am being possessiveĀ and demanding,but you know I am just like that – headstrong and practical at times and a hopeless emotional f00l at others. Bear with me and please be there…..!!!
“Koi tumase puche kaun hu main –Ā tum keh dena koi khass nahi,
ek dost hai kachcha- pakka sa,
ek sawal hai aadha suljha sa,
jasbat ke man pe parechae sa,
thoda ajnjan,thoda jana pehchana sa,
jo pas hokar bhi pas nahi,
per usse chupa koi raaj nahi,
koi tumase puche kon hu main, tum keh dena koi khass nahi… ” – Anonymous