Yes it has changed for now and for ever….! For good or bad, better or worse , change is inevitable. I have my share of hiccups for this biggest so far change and the husband is only hope,support, love and every possible thing. He is the only thing that has not changed. It takes me while to recognize that people are talking about “Him”, addressing him as my “Husband” as for me nothing has changed in him. I wonder and even envy him for the ease that he has to accept and live with it all. Or should say things are not changed for him to the extent they are changed, changing and will continue to be so for me? Well I am not sure if it is so. I feel kind of lost these days, cannot find “The Me time or The him time”. Looking forward to settle down quickly…!
Like every normal girl, I was excited about marriage right from my childhood days. I never thought beyond the time that I would spend happily with my prince charming. But today when I am married, I realize that marriage is not all roses. It’s not just about being with your beloved and having a gala time. There is so much more to it. It comes with its own share of responsibilities, duties, sacrifices and compromises.
I can’t wake up anytime I want to.
I am expected to be up and ready before everyone else in the family.
I can’t laze around in my pajamas throughout the day.
I am expected to be presentable every time.
I can’t just go out anytime I want to.
I am expected to be sensitive to the needs of the family.
I just can’t hit the bed anytime I want to.
I am expected to be active and around the family.
I can’t expect to be treated like a princess but am supposed to take care of everyone else in the family.
And then I think to myself, ‘why did I get married at all?’ I was happier with you, mom. Sometimes I think of coming back to you and getting pampered again. I want to come home to my favourite food cooked by you every evening after a nice outing with friends. I want to sleep on your laps like I have no worry in this world. But then I suddenly realize, had you not got married and made such sacrifices in your life, I wouldn’t have had so many wonderful memories to hang on to. And suddenly, the purpose of all this becomes clear- to return the same comfort, peace and happiness to my new family that I got from you.
And I am sure that as time would pass, I would start loving this life equally as you do. Thank you mom for all the sacrifices and compromises you made. They give me the strength to do the same.
P.S. : This post is a forward email, posting it as I am standing in the same shoes