Identity and individuality…!

Does it make sense to respond on behalf of a gender group because the group it self is being criticised to a level not acceptable because of some rotten apples?

I felt wave of anguish for all girls/ women addressed with the worst words I could tolerate and aptly gave it back then and there. I have a realisation for the prejudices and biases against the feminine gender and I thought I have moved on from it once and for all. It was utterly down to the level that I couldn’t simply let it pass.

I just wonder what kind of mindset it is to completely overlook that is wrong under our own feets and do a full throttle effort to pin point entire world so badly that our wrong is buried deep down for anyone to see.

Nothing and no one is perfect, why we just cannot live and let live ? Why we have to peep into others lives and have a say or suggestions which are not asked for? What kind of achievement one leads to by proving others wrong and down.

I need a break from every damn thing around. I need a patience and energy to look at good over evil, get past all that is not appropriate. Amen…..!

as she turns 5…

Yes my sunshine turned 5 couple of days back. I cannot get over the memory of feelings of anxiety,fear,cheer and every other emotion human mind go through for the D day and viola it is past 5 years already.

I must say she does every single thing on her wish and will and this holds true since the time of her time and day of her birth. She is full term baby literally and not just 9 months , she took complete 9 hours on the day to peep into this world. No remedy, no amount of labour induction could make her come little early and make me free of it all…! I don’t know if it is the case around for every one, but I vividly remember every bit of the DAY.

Fast forward to her turning 5, they say have a daughter and you will have little version of yourself to argue with , and that holds true for us 😀. We kinda debate on anything and everything, be it be dress to wear, way to style hair, pair of shoes to wear to name a few.

Besides all mess that we go through every day, she is one of piller of my support system. She can sense change my mood and already knows how to comfort. She is the one who was by my side while learnt to sit behind driving wheel of a 4 wheeler and I cannot put down how happy she is to tell about that her mumma can drive. She equally appreciate when I bake a cake for her or make an ice-cream for her. I don’t from where she has it, but she likes what is all home made.(it makes me looking into the kitchen often more than I would have ever given a choice 🙄) On this note, I must say for her simplicity is the mantra…! and she is hell bent on this. She is absolutely off the glittery things and that makes me smile ear to ear with sigh of relief.

Well that is what all I can quickly scribble down not to miss on her milestone. Happiest 5th my world l. Fly high and stay blessed. ,❤️💕

To the complete Big 1

Well your mumma almost missed it and is late as always. It was on 29th and that is more than couple of days back. They say better late than never, so here I am.

Wish you a very happy first birthday sweetheart. Love to the moon and back and blessings from all of us. May you be blessed with best of everything you would ever cherish for.

We made sure to keep the celebration as simple as possible as we didn’t wanted to see you cry, feel annoyed and give up on everything. You are too small for all this and we promise the one absolutely the way you want when you yourself can tell us about how you want it to be. We know somewhere that we disappointed many people around doing this, but it was all for you and so we wanted it to be suitable for you and nothing else was even of concern.

Capturing your milestones on the occasion of the D day here :

You can almost walk without any support. I wish I could protect you from the contaminated air and just have a pure thing for you to breath and save you from all those viral things,sigh. It brought you down and made you weak to the core. Hoping for your seepdy recovery.

Oh yes how can we forget about your teething, 1 is clearly out and others have started peeping out. Cannot wait to see you as our cute little bunny with two upper ones out :). I know it is way too painful for you but this is how we all have it, so hang on you are almost there.

You can speak now, yeah the clear words. Most important you gladly call me “Aai” with that cute smile and you know it is a thing to die for. You have no idea how much I have been waiting for this to happen since you started blabbering.

You have started recognising a few animals and fondly try to imitate there voices. I am trying my best to capture and preserve it all.

You are getting addicted to rhymes played on the phone, and I don’t have a clear solution as to how can I make you forget this as I am not around you 24X7. This and such similar things gives me and your papa worries to an extent that we end thinking of quitting the work as solution to put an end to all this mess 😦

Last but not the least you are improving on sleep hours in the night and I can have a sleep for 4 hours straight uninterrupted. This is quite an achievement for both of us , ain’t it 😉

I don’t know for what reason but I am not able to bring this post to an inline end, putting an end with these lines:

My baby

fast forward to the sixth month…!

So I started already missing on her milestones. She is six months today :). She has started turning around and learning to sit. Oh yes and thing of utter importance, she has started living 5 hours a day without me. 🙂 😦 . Yep you guys guessed it right, I have joined back and the emotional drain has been in process for 29 days now. We both are able to survive through it till now.

I am trying to put down all that happened so far, so that you and I both can read it as you grow up and mesmerize in the memories 🙂

You can very well turn around now, so the risky business of letting you alone on the bed is gaining  a fast pace. You did the first lesson of getting off the bed on the floor, giving a small heart attach to almost every one in the house. We are gearing up for being on toes and many such adventures :D. Giving you bath is turning to be the challenge as you refuse to be calm for even just a second. You are in hurry to do all the mundane things right then when your granny is giving you massage. We just wonder what is wrong for face cleaning thing with you, what makes you cry that louder every single day and how do you guess that we are going to have soap over your face no matter how many times we try and change the order of the things we do while bathing.

We have started making you taste the food we eat, aww how much you enjoy having food with all of us. That joy in your eyes is priceless and face that you make when you taste a new thing is so much fun to watch.

You wake up in just another minute I move away from you, be it be morning, or afternoon. How do you manage to guess that things have move around from you even I make sure you are fast a sleep before I step away. Sixth sense, is it something that is so developed for you already sweetheart? My attempt of keeping a pillow or a soft toy around you when I move away is a failure, you know it’s not me for sure.

You have started toothing, yeah I see it is painful for you. You are in constant effort to take a bite of anything and everything that you can. We welcome stomach infection with your this progress.

You have already started aligning people around in a sequence whom you want to stay with. If it is me around , you don’t want anyone else to hold you. Your dad is the second person in the home and your grandmother – she is the last and the only resort for you then. We all giggle to see you growing smart.

You blabber some letters as you play, “dada” ,”tyatya” are a few we can make some sense out of. It was no easy to record that audio as you managed to be silent every time you saw me holding the phone. But I am your mumma sweetheart :P, I managed to record it the other day and I would make sure to keep it safe for you to listen to it later. 🙂

Oh yes last but not the least thing, you can very well sense a camera in front now. Is it nature that is pushing in the sense of technology this early in you as we are part of fast faced tech world?