the kitchen things…!

How I cherish my good old self who was obsessed with gadgets of almost every type. As bachelor I always thought of having well equipped kitchen whenever I will have my own. I am no pro at cooking nor do I plan to be the one, in short I am not keen in trying and experimenting recipes…! Irrespective of the just mentioned fact, I wanted every available appliance at my disposal.

Not that whatever I dreamt of is reality, but I am in process of reaching where I wanted ;). So far yours truly has got three different types of mixers/grinder (yeah 3 thanks to Mr G for his contribution to bring the numbers up 😉 ) , a griller, microwave oven and a blender to be precise 😉 .

Past two years of lockdown has opened up new feathers of my better half’s personality to me, I find him equally excited while roaming in the utensils shop as me, yeah you are reading it right :D. My affection for him is increased by an inch for this :p . So with this common found interest, we managed to shift from semi to fully automatic washing machine. We planned and have a microwave we are in the process of doing some research for the dishwasher and air fryer.

A few of whatever I have so far are not very regularly used, but let me tell ya, they are my priced possession. The thought of having it all is so damn satisfying, crazy you see 😀 . I haven’t had a recollection of having this draft laying around, now that I noticed it, hitting the button to move it up from drafts…

Disclaimer: please try your best not to find a logical start/middle/end to this post..

WordPress wishes anniversary…!

11 years it is…! It is 11th one with WordPress. This place has seen quite of my journey. It feels good to read the older posts and wonder how far I have come. Life has turned and moved in many directions way beyond I had imagined. It is blessing to have a place like this where one can vent out without fear of being judged. One can be absolutely anonymous and let it all flow without giving a second thought, what else once can ask for.

I came across many wonderful fellow bloggers and it is enriching to read experiences. Reading through journeys of others , I am learning to count on my blessings. This place has always made me believe, I am not alone in the boat, there are many people around sailing in the same boat. This has certainly helped me to gather myself together and keep on moving.

I had neither thought that I could write something that can be published for anyone to read nor world has generous people to read and appreciate my scribbling. I am immensely grateful to each and every one of those who spared few minute of their precious time to read through my write ups. This has helped come this far and ring in the 11th one 🙂 .

I promise myself to keep this going as and when possible. Signing of with quote which made my time. 🙂

“It’s the days you have every right to breakdown and fall apart, yet choose to show up anyway that matter most. Don’t diminish the small steps that others can’t see.”
― Brittany Burgunder

emotional turbulence…!

Things happen and end up stirring every corner of your the mind leaving you with nothing more than a dismay.

Life brings you up to everything that you didn’t think of in your wildest dream and leaves you wondering does it even really make sense to plan/imagine the things. In reality we as human don’t have even a percent of control over any thing that is happening around.

People turn around, left and right, up and down with blink of eye. The ones you counted on to be your core seem to be part of different world without you realising that move. Each of your move judged and counted as foul no matter how unintentionally it happens.

Nothing is pure. All your actions are labelled and interpreted in possible ways except for your thought process behind it.

Take on what life throws…!

as she turns 5…

Yes my sunshine turned 5 couple of days back. I cannot get over the memory of feelings of anxiety,fear,cheer and every other emotion human mind go through for the D day and viola it is past 5 years already.

I must say she does every single thing on her wish and will and this holds true since the time of her time and day of her birth. She is full term baby literally and not just 9 months , she took complete 9 hours on the day to peep into this world. No remedy, no amount of labour induction could make her come little early and make me free of it all…! I don’t know if it is the case around for every one, but I vividly remember every bit of the DAY.

Fast forward to her turning 5, they say have a daughter and you will have little version of yourself to argue with , and that holds true for us 😀. We kinda debate on anything and everything, be it be dress to wear, way to style hair, pair of shoes to wear to name a few.

Besides all mess that we go through every day, she is one of piller of my support system. She can sense change my mood and already knows how to comfort. She is the one who was by my side while learnt to sit behind driving wheel of a 4 wheeler and I cannot put down how happy she is to tell about that her mumma can drive. She equally appreciate when I bake a cake for her or make an ice-cream for her. I don’t from where she has it, but she likes what is all home made.(it makes me looking into the kitchen often more than I would have ever given a choice 🙄) On this note, I must say for her simplicity is the mantra…! and she is hell bent on this. She is absolutely off the glittery things and that makes me smile ear to ear with sigh of relief.

Well that is what all I can quickly scribble down not to miss on her milestone. Happiest 5th my world l. Fly high and stay blessed. ,❤️💕

brocken crayons and uncapped markers

Well title pretty much sums up your truly’s life. When I get off the office chair, I either pick up the broken pieces of the crayons at every possible flat surface of the house or I end up capping open markers/sketch pens and I cannot put down how irritating and tiring it is.

Well on the other hand, we are learning to read phonetically how to spell the words with the sounds of letters and I am happy to share my almost 5yrs old munchkin is able to read 3 letters words. We read anything and everything that is spelled in English. Shouldn’t a mommy be happy about it ? With this progress for English, she is not speaking a single complete sentence in Marathi, sigh 😦 . Am I expecting too much, Yes is the answer, argh….!

Mommy’s around, please help me know how to get over this? I do not see the solution to any of these.

forward to 7th year

I am here again yet another time after ages. So many things happened in between. It is second consecutive year of a so called lockdown here. So just like last year we are locked in side the house. What makes this more worrisome is every other phone calls gives the news about another relative/acquaintance hit by Covid, sigh..! As of now all them who were affected so far are back home safe and sound and one cannot ask for more given the situation around.

The post started on quiet sad note, but there are some good things which are worth mentioning atleast for my own reference, so that I can smile looking at the memory pop up about by own write up. Well our little one turned 4 last month and we completed 7 years of being married this month. I have mentioned it in more than 50% of my posts and I am mentioning it again time does fly..! 7 years , I mena really? We know each other almost like a second nature now. Mr husband already has a skill to learn about people around quickly but for me it took time. We can act pretty sane for world now when inside we are struggling hard to be on the same page. We have improved our reading between the lines. Many day to day things are taken care implicitly. Most importantly we respect each other more and we equally respect each other’s space. We have concrete discussions on upbringing of our sweety pie so that we don’t miss out on things just because we couldn’t pay attention for things which she is capable of doing. It is imperative to keep things in check for her learning and unlearning various things.

And now that we are matured in many aspects of relationship and life , I still crave for mundane discussions about anything and everything and burst of a laughter there by. I still want us to be free from bindings of every other relation and be just same old us for some time atleast. I cannot take myself to be less attentive part of your space and might not be able to do so ever. A thing that I would like to mention and thank you Mr husband for being my go to guy for all these years without a bit change and I am yet to hear from you about where I stand.

I will have to write another post on how does it feel to see and know you have raised a being to 4 years. Intresting it is going to be.

For now, singing off on note of this melodious song which we are listening in loop 🙂

मेरी जाँ, मुझे जाँ न कहो मेरी जाँ
मेरी जाँ, मेरी जाँ
मुझे जाँ न कहो मेरी जाँ
मेरी जाँ, मेरी जाँ

जाँ न कहो अंजान मुझे 
जान कहाँ रहती है सदा
अंजाने, क्या जाने
जान के जाए कौन भला
मेरी जाँ
मुझे जाँ न कहो मेरी जाँ ...

सूखे सावन बरस गए
कितनी बार इन आँखों से
दो बूँदें ना बरसे
इन भीगी पलकों से
मेरी जाँ
मुझे जाँ न कहो मेरी जाँ   ...

होंठ झुके जब होंठों पर
साँस उलझी हो साँसों में
दो जुड़वाँ होंठों की
बात कहो आँखों से
मेरी जाँ
मुझे जाँ न कहो मेरी जाँ   ...
https://youtu.be/F6FkVPOMtvM
Its me,
yours truly 😘

mundane…!

It’s been long time I have visited this place. Today as well I don’t have anything precise on my mind, so is the title of the post…!

A complete year is almost gone and here’s your’s truly contemplating over positives and negatives. There are some important things that went for toss because this entire year was aweful and crazy to unimaginable extent. I am yearning for a start of new year on right foot. Fingers crossed..!

They say forbidden fruit is sweetest, and I am experiencing it day in and out. I am neither wonderer nor a party person and I might not have even realised that we haven’t been on break for long if there weren’t daily reminders for the same. Now that they keep repeating the things about staying in, I feel urge to be out. Crazy I know, being a mother of 3.5 yrs old keeps us from crossing the line.

Best thing that happened to me during this time is Netflix and Prim. I wasn’t into webseries before with exception of little things, but now with some good recommendations from Mr husband I am hogging over the episodes and seasons there by. I am glad this happened, this had helped me stay away from somethings which I was trying hard. Vocabulary, ideas , perspectives are some of the other countable advantages and I am ignoring increased screen time for that 😉

I finally started sitting behind the wheel with measurable confidence. 🙂 This was on list for last 6 years, and it is finally happening. This is one thing that I have learnt new and is practically visible. I had almost made up my mind for loosing over learning edge and the thought ran chill down my spine every time it crossed my mind.

I started and left daily workouts. Sigh ……! Looking forward to start it over let’s say from tomorrow morning it self. Healthy mind dwells in healthy body, I totally buy it.

I need to put an end as she is literally dragging me to play with her, signing off with making note of things to put down in part two of mundane things.

Till then, stay blessed…!

It’s me,

Your’s truly.. 🙂

life is beautiful…!

Leading by example makes a huge difference while raising a child. We were definitely not expecting to see it in effect this quickly.

I had taken a day off work and was completing all the mundane things before settling down around 2 o’clock in the afternoon. It was time for her nap too. She climbed on the bed seeing me sitting there and what she said was priceless :

Me : Chal ata jhopayachi wel jhaliye (Come on its time for sleep now)

She : (While climbing up) Aai tu aaj kitti kam kelays, me ata tula ek chan dress gift deyin ha …! (Mumma you have worked so much today, I will gift you a nice dress for that..) ❤ ❤ ..

Seeing your kid practicing compassion at age where she is not even out of your laps literally is priceless. What else you ask for 🙂

detox…!

It took myriad of efforts for me to breath that sigh of relief nearing the DETOX….!

Detox from every possible unhealthy thought, from all filthy talk that is not worth my time, sweat and blood. It is no easy to get rid of those inner screams of anguish, disgust, disappoint and all similar feelings but at the same time it is way more disastrous to let it come out every now and then.

They say small minds trick you to bring down to their level and make you do what you wouldn’t otherwise ..! I came across this very experience n number times in the recent past. I ended up asking myself, wait what , did I do or say that,Gosh..! I never ever want to get down to that level , ever I say.! Along with witnessing what I said above , I am seeing karma playing its role a big time. Person under effect may or may not realize it, but as a by stander I could clearly see and relate to it, not once or twice but multiple times. This perhaps proves, none of our intervention is required to let someone pay for the wrong deeds. It is just matter of time.

I totally take the fact that none of us can please every one around at any point of time, definitions of wrong and right are subjective and vary person to person but at-least one can try to be rational or neutral if not anything else.None of us is gifted with right to point anyone down just because we are standing a level above irrespective of the way we have reached there. All superiority one has gained is definitely not for making someone else feel inferior. Time does take turns to show us both the sides of life.

I wish and bend down to pray for strength – to look beyond what is obvious to eyes, to abide by the sense of righteousness. Don’t get me wrong, by no means I am trying to be saint or something. It is all in effort of keeping up the inner peace and doing a gesture of gratitude in return to all of the blessings I have.

P.S : Post is not written pointing anyone specific, more of in general day to day experiences and observations. 🙂